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[_{they had been dating for a little while now, and yet ... this was Corrin's first time hearing of his partner's history. to say that he was heartbroken by what he had heard was an understatement. not only this, but by the way he gradually watched Sandalphon crumble in his arms as he explained himself. it was a situation which almost mirrored what he had experienced at prom, where Sandalphon had cuddled him and soothed him from the breakdown he had after remembering the troubles of his past. only this time it was different: they were in a relationship now, and it wasn't strange for Corrin to show as much physical affection as he could offer.} ]

Sandalphon... I'm here. It's okay. I'm here.

[_{he soothingly rubs his boyfriend's arm with his hand, stroking him with his thumb, speaking in a hushed tone.} ]

You can cry. It's okay. Let yourself cry.

[_{Corrin almost felt like crying himself from hearing Sandalphon's account of what he went through. how familiar parts of it were, like losing your mind to grief and almost hurting someone in the progress. Corrin doesn't remember if he mentioned the fact that he almost killed someone he loves after losing his humanity to his dragon powers, but he knew he would tell his partner about it soon to provide a deep empathy and understanding to the guilt that must be eating away at him. only when he feels that it is appropriate does he begin to speak, guiding his caring words out in a gentle hushed tone after applying another kiss to Sandalphon's forehead.} ]

I'm so sorry you went through a horrible ordeal like that ... I know from experience that nightmares of the past are never fun. [_{Corrin glances at his coffee table and leans forward to grab some tissues, giving them to his partner.} ] But going forward ... it is never a pain you have to suffer alone ever again, Sandalphon ... I'm not leaving you, and I never will. [_{he squeezes him tighter.} ] Your anger was just, but you aren't worthless to me ... I want to protect you for all my days to come.

[ the dam was open, and sandalphon let himself cry and cry. of course, he had those parting words lucifer had given him, the words that he'll carry close to his heart no matter the trial... but that didn't stop the pain of losing him, of missing him by his side, of wanting him to experience the world as he sees fit, away from the roles that were forced upon him and now that he'll never have. he cries for the loss of his friend, his innocence, and even the fact that he was now cursed with the title that lucifer wanted to cede to nature when everything was said and done.

but even so, he didn't deny the fact that corrin was here, comforting him and making him feel cared for. the prince didn't even mind that he was soaking his pajamas up with tears. that alone made the angel realize that corrin wasn't lying, like the cynic in him said. his promise held true, and sandalphon held nothing but gratitude. the comfort was even more than what he offered the prince in his time of need, but he chalked it up to them not being as comfortable around each other as they were now.

eventually his tears did dry up, and he listened intently to his boyfriend's words. he was never alone... he would never be alone. sandalphon felt so relieved at the promise that he finally found the strength to return corrin's hug, using all his strength to keep his arms up. he took the offered tissues after a moment of holding corrin tight, blowing his nose and finally finding himself capable of speech once more. ]

Thank you... thank you for not leaving. [ he finally finds himself capable of a smile, and this time, it does reach his eyes. it fades as he moves on, wiping his face from his tears. ] I... Of course, there's more to the story, however... that's where most of my nightmare was.

I... [ he takes a deep breath. ] I wish I could take it all back. But what done is done. I hurt so many people, however... [ he places his head atop corrin's shoulder. he was definitely tired now. ] I believe I can still atone, to pray for their forgiveness so that I can become a better person.

... Will I be able to accomplish it? I'm unsure. But I'm very willing to try.

[_{Corrin continues to soothingly run his thumb over Sandalphon's hand, speaking in a gentle tone.} ]

You show clear remorse. And that is invaluable. That is a sign of ... true character. Strength, growth ... that you've moved past the choice you made. You deserve forgiveness from yourself.

[_{he leans into his boyfriend.} ]

There are parts of my past, the decisions I've made that I regret greatly. They may not have the same gravity as what you went through, but ... I share only because I want you to understand you aren't the only one who has battled through the moral dilemma of self forgiveness. When I turned into a dragon for the first time, I ... [_sigh ] ... I ... almost killed someone very close to me. The only thing that stopped me was a magical song that calms dragons, sung by the woman I nearly killed. If she hadn't done that ... [_{Corrin takes in a sharp breath.}] Well. Let's just say it was a very close call.

[_{another deep sigh.} ]

But ... she forgave me. And I forgive you. And you should forgive yourself, too. You will be able to accomplish anything you set your mind to, and I will be here for you every step of the way.

[ sandalphon felt the need to cry once more-- but not tears of sorrow, but of joy. what wonders does it make that he can find the ability to forgive himself. he had an inkling that he was being too harsh on himself, but corrin's words only proved him right, and it was something for him to think on.

it only helped accentuate the fact that forgiveness is a two way street, when corrin told him about his own pains. to almost kill out of the same level of uncontrollable rage... while corrin was able to save the one he almost killed, sandalphon did not have that luxury. but corrin still found it in him to forgive. how he wanted to be as strong as his partner.

then again, he didn't have to do it himself, now did he? his prince did say that he would not be alone under any circumstance. it comforted him. ]

How are you so kind-hearted...? [ he sniffles. yeesh, he did a number to his face, he's sure. ] Sometimes I wonder if I truly even deserve you...

Regardless, thank you. For being here, and to allow me to... at least come to understand many things about myself... [ he takes a deep breath. ] Would I be able to depend on you, if I were to stumble...?

[ there's a pleased hum that escaped him over Sandalphon's visually improved demeanour, while he lovingly runs his fingers through those dark locks of soft brown hair. ]

You deserve kindness, Sandalphon ... you deserve to feel loved, cherished and protected.

[ the words that Sandalphon says fills him with a special kind of determination to see through to his partner never feeling like he has to hide anything like this from him ever again. while continuing to run his fingers across his hair, he plants a kiss on his head. ]

Of course. Please ... let me be your sanctuary. I'll never judge you for struggling ... and I only hope to receive the very same from you. There's a lot in my past that haunts me sometimes ... and I think we can help each other out a lot. You can consider my home yours ... my door will always be open for you. And so will my heart.

The same applies to you, Corrin. I hope you do not forget that.

[ even if corrin was the one comforting him this time around, sandalphon wasn't happy just letting him benefit from this personalized therapy. if corrin ever needed it, he would provide all the same. the bonus affection was certainly soothing his soul, even as he tried to grab tissues without breaking contact. ]

As I said before, the same applies to you as well. If you're to be my sanctuary, then I will cherish you as you deserve to be cherished. I'll be your pillar of support no matter what you go through, no matter what obstacle you come across. Regardless of it all, I will love you as you deserve to be loved, now and for all time. [ he's unsure if corrin would even live as long as he will, but he tries not to dwell on such a topic. ]

... Sandalphon.

[ Corrin gazes at him half-lidded with so much adoration in his eyes. he was so full of love for the man sat with him, he felt as though he could hardly breathe. oh gods. now it's hit turn to tear up. ]

You're the best thing that's ever happened to me.

[ those tears finally break free while he takes the other's hands. ]

[ ah, nope, not going to happen. sandalphon reaches over to grab some clean tissues, dabbing corrin's tears away with a smile. ]

Come now, no need to cry. [ he laughs lightly. ] Let's simply say we were both lucky to find each other, alright?

[ Corrin giggles softly, he was feeling embarrassed for crying but ... he was so, so happy. ]

Mmhmm. [ sigh ] Alright. [ he leans in to kiss Sandalphon on the lips, lingering for a good moment. ]

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